Wednesday, March 7, 2018

I had a dream last night which was all kinds of complicated, but partially revolved around being a successful, professional black person. A young man named Robert appeared in my dream who I knew from college, a young man named Jordan, also appeared, who I also last knew from my college days. A mysterious neighbor lady was there too, who I found intriguing cause she was a very friendly neighbor type who in the dream had gotten tired of my natural introversion and stand offish behavior of which I'm fond, and was essentially giving me my space, even though at the time of this particular dream, I was ready for more attention.

 This got me thinking about becoming a professional, academic personage. In my old life, this was the goal, to become such a person, but as the years have passed and my career has stalled, this goal has seemed more remote, less realistic. But in the next 3 years, God willing, I'll be at a point in my life where such a possibility will become a realistic prospect. So how do I get there? How do I become the man that I used to wish to be? How do I gain the discipline and insight to prepare me for those years of work? Writing as I'm doing in this blog, is  a great part of it I think. Being willing to learn and be educated is another great part of it. Making professional connections, such a great part. The ocean that is Academia was water that I thought I might learn to swim in,which I haven't mastered yet. But I know this is the place where my talents can be best cultivated. I hope that in the near future, I'll be able to communicate more effectively, and become better at writing as a whole.