I'm thinking about Will again. You never really get over your first love, do you? Not completely anyway. I wonder if he's happy? If he's safe? If he's free in body and soul, if never fully free in mind? I think if I knew he was in love and being loved, it would be easier to let him go completely. But as long as he lives a life that sees his queerness as disease, it's hard for me to leave him to the providence of God.